Alright, it’s time for some real talk. I’ve been avoiding this place, once again. How many times can I say that before you get sick of me. Are you already sick of me? I hope not! It’s just that… there’s only so much DIY a girl can do at once, ya know?
And to be perfectly honest, I’ve been a little DIYed out. You may have noticed I’ve had a recurring theme going on this summer about chilling out, taking it easy, relaxing, breathing, spending time doing nothing. I really have been trying to follow that. Of course, it comes and goes in waves and I’ll go from being unable to even mutter the word DIY one day to wanting to do all the projects the next day! I guess that’s normal, right?
But I have to tell you the truth. I’m totally okay with it. For the first time in so long, I have felt pretty free this summer. Free to do what I want. Free from the pressure I was somehow placing on myself. Free to just BE.
I tend to do this… I work hard on my projects and I write in my blog during my darkest, most difficult times. It’s a therapeutic thing. It keeps my mind occupied, gives me a creative outlet, gives me something positive to focus on. And then, historically speaking, I tend to neglect my blog and lay off the busy project stuff when I’m actually feeling happy and satisfied. But then, oh then, something even worse happens. I feel guilty. Guilty for abandoning this place. I should post something! I worked so hard on my blog, I can’t just forget about it! I need to write something, anything! But what!? I have nothing to share! Work on a project! But I don’t feel like it! That’s okay. But then you’ll have nothing to share! Oh no, what do I do?!
If you think I’m a crazy person after reading that, you’re probably right.
But that’s kind of just how it goes, and I’m trying to let myself be okay with that. I don’t want to write here just for the sake of writing something. Unless, of course, I’m feeling inspired to write something and I want to… and that’s my point! Inspired writing, inspired projects. Nobody wants to read an uncomfortable, forced, cringe-worthy blog… myself included.
So here I am, at 4:00 in the morning, letting you know why my DIY projects have slowed down and just throwing it out there that they probably will from time to time. And then they’ll pick right back up. And I will be here sharing it all when inspiration strikes. Right now, I’m in one of those slower times. And that’s a good thing, because that means I’m in a happy place and I’m trying to let myself enjoy it.
All that being said, I just gave this place a MAJOR makeover! And in the process of doing so, did a lot of thinking about what it is I’m trying to accomplish here. “The Unfinished Project” is about so much more than DIY projects. I’ve always joked that my life motto is fake it ’til you make it and honestly, I kinda feel like that’s how I was able to accomplish everything that I have accomplished in my life. And hey! It’s not a bad thing. You really need to just jump right in. Go for it. It doesn’t matter if you don’t really think you know what you’re doing. If you trust yourself, you’ll find that you actually do. Whether it’s painting a dresser or finding a new job or traveling to France on a whim, some of my best creations and experiences have come from moments where I felt like I had absolutely no idea what I was doing. So while I like to pretend that I have it all together, just like everyone else, I really don’t. Just like everyone else. Life is one big unfinished project.
Thanks for reading and bearing with all the crazy.